Tuesday, July 20, 2021

Stuck In My Own Head

For those of you who've never gotten completely lost in thought, yes, it's a thing.  I tend to think of it as hyper-focusing on my own thoughts. Sometimes just one thought or problem. I'm going to include as thorough a description as possible here.  It is as much for medical personnel as for anyone else dealing with something similar. 

It actually happens to me quite often.  I think of something I want/need to fix, solve, make, etc. And then it just goes from there. It doesn't even have to be anything big or important.

Unless I figure it out/solve it, in less time, it can go on for hours. I've had it go through multiple tangents and/or double back, to explore  branches previously not taken. And it's so engrossing that I lose track of time completely.  I have even lost hours of sleep, because of this issue. That frequently happens, when the process begins soon before I was supposed to go to bed.

You might think that I should have control over this. Unfortunately it seems to be quite the reverse. The only "control" I seem able to assert, is if I'm able to solve it. Then it just comes naturally to an end. And that's when I see how much time I've lost.

I even tried making a note about such things. But instead of being able to just put it away after that, My mind starts going immediately. IF I catch it, right as it starts, I have a chance to push it away. But that is pretty rare! Perhaps kind of like trying to dodge rain.

To be perfectly honest, I don't know if another person could help me get out of it. Since it  doesn't seem to occur around other people. It's pretty much always when I'm home by myself.


I'm sorry to say that this particular issue, as well as a couple of others, has been responsible for my lack of posting recently.  I do hope it has not caused anyone too much  concern. And in case anyone would like to connect with me, I get notifications for comments.

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