Migraine - keeping track

I have been getting more migraines, in the last several months. So I think it prudent to at least try to keep a record of them. If I can at least make a note each time I have one, the next time I'm asked about frequency, I'll have something better to say than; 'I can't say for sure.'

Anyway, I woke up today with the start of a migraine. Before taking my usual migraine cocktail  (1 Naproxen and 1 Midol), I tried manually adjusting my neck. It helped a little, but not enough. And after just a few minutes, it started getting worse again. It's accompanied by the usual light and sound sensitivity. So I went ahead and medicated.

As for possible triggers, I can't imagine much that I did, could have been exposed to, ate or drank that could be responsible.  I am chronically sleep-deprived, as well as possibly a bit dehydrated, in spite of my best. And there's always the chance that my next-door-neighbor's efforts to work on other people's vehicles in his driveway may have exposed me to some chemicals I'm not aware of. I eat and drink much of the same things, every day.  And that consists almost entirely of real food, as "clean" as possible, that I cook for myself.

I'm a big label reader. Even on my minuscule budget, I go out of my way to buy food and other products without risky additives. And I do my best to keep up with the hazardous additives/chemicals, that may effect my environment or get into my food. Having already had cancer, I'm extremely keen to prevent a recurrence! And I think it reasonable to expect that my precautions, to that end, should reduce my migraine risk as well.

For the record, this small update has taken me close to 2 hours, most of it needing to be typed (my tablet no longer seems capable of efficient speech to text). This is part of why I post so rarely. It is also why I have difficulty keeping up with any food journal attempts.

What I'm Thankful For Today

 Mostly it's the people that I love and that love me, that I'm the most grateful for;

• My "Bonus-Mom", who continues to make my life possible, in spite of the hardship it causes to her own.
• My dear sister and her family who, besides occasionally providing much needed food for my precious fur baby when I can't, are among the most special people in my life.
• My precious fur baby, who keeps me as centered and sane as anyone can, and without whom I could not bear to continue.
• My "boyfriends", who are there for me in a myriad of ways, in spite of my own shortcomings.
• More other family and friends than I can easily count, let alone have the 'hands' left to praise nearly as highly as they deserve.
• My home and what possessions I still have.
• My own highly developed ability to "make do" with what I have. I've been doing it for more years than I care to count.
  
• And in spite of the recently imposed restrictions, my Food Stamps and Disability benefits, without which I could not even feed myself.
• Medicaid, without which it's extremely likely that I'd be dead already or dying a slow and horrible death.

I'm sure there is more that I'm grateful for but this covers the vast majority.

Make no mistake, there is much that I wish for, to make my life better and possibly even allow me to make a small living for myself. However that is another post entirely.

I will say that the greatest thing I wish for is to live a small and relatively simple life, with enough money to support myself and my fur baby for the rest of our shared life. I'd prefer to stop being dependent on those who love me most. I've found it to be contrary to my own good self-image and mental health.

Never Ask "How Much Worse Can Things Get?" ...

 ... or "What Else Could Happen?" or anything like that.

About a weak ago, I started my day with a niggling migraine. And this was a weird one. It started inside my right eye socket and felt like that location was being "stabbed" with a narrow blunt instrument. Still, as usual, I tried various methods to reduce the effect. Eventually I wound up giving in and taking my full migraine cocktail (1 naproxen, 1 Midol and 7.5mg BuSpar). Most of my migraines are eliminated by this "cocktail", in one shot.

Unfortunately, though my pain abated for a while, I was forced to take the same as often as each could be taken safely (naproxen is a 1 per 12 hour pain reliever). I managed to get some sleep and had high hopes of waking migraine free. You may be familiar with the adage; "wish in one hand and c--p in the other and see which fills up first. Well the same goes for hoping, more often than we want to admit.

And if that's not bad enough, while still dealing with the migraine, only minutes before heading to bed, I realized that my home heat had stopped working. So I went downstairs and did everything I could think of. My efforts concluded with my HVAC off at the thermostat as well as at the connected breaker (to ensure no additional damage to the unit).

So I cranked up the electric heater, in my bedroom, put on an extra blanket and went to bed hoping for the best.

I awoke the next day in pretty much the same condition, having shivered my way through the night. Same procedures (omitting the hopeful attempts to stave off taking med's) and same outcome. I had little hope left in me, as I bunked down in my office that night, as my bedroom windows would work better as sieves. The ones in my office at least keep heat/ac in. And I have another heater in my office. So, uncomfortable as it was, I managed a few hours sleep.

To my amazement I woke with only a little migraine "residue", even though I was quite tired still. So I went about the extremely tedious and taxing procedure of getting the heat fixed. For me that has the added complexity of needing to ask for help. I haven't nearly enough money to even begin to cover those sort of costs.

So anyway, two more uncomfortable nights later, my heat got fixed. And I'm still doing my very best to keep utility costs to a minimum, per normal.

Under the heading of "Insult to Injury", somewhere in all that, I had to do my SNAP interview for the year. While it was technically "successful", my monthly amount got shredded. I was "... getting the Max ... of $280 a month", before I had to report that I finally got my Disability, even though my total was well below the poverty line. Now I only get $109 a month.

* What finally prompted me to make this post is that, only about two days later, I just spent another whole day dealing with yet another migraine. So I've spent the last 12+ hours medicating and drinking a LOT of warm or hot tea, in an attempt to keep my pain to a minimum. Being cold is one of my worst enemies, when I have a migraine.

I'm so very tired of feeling like the ball, in an exciting soccer game. ... My own physiology. ... Cancer! ... "The System." ... and so on.  So may things kicking me when I'm already down and making my head spin.

All I really want is to live a quiet, reasonably comfortable life, in better health and less pain. Obviously that takes money. More than I can get through The System. That is unless there's a lot I don't know. At this point, I'd be happy to take such information as tips or a sign of appreciation. Alternately, donations are welcome at the following link:

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ChocZero !

I think I finally found a company that actually shares my own sensibilities regarding chocolate and sugar free products! Here's a link to that company:  ChocZero.

• Many of their products are vegan and keto friendly.
• They only use natural extracts and the like, as sweeteners. No sugar. No last-century toxic waste. Not even the more recent sugar alcohols. And while I'll admit that I haven't looked at each and every offering, so far it appears they don't even use stevia, leaf or purified.
• They focus on making a healthful and delicious product. That does mean that less attention is paid to calorie count. For years now I've been of the opinion that this is the correct approach. So long as moderation is employed, the extra calories need not be a "deal breaker".
  
• And then there's the fact that all the ingredient lists I've seen provide assurances that the oils used are sustainably sourced. While their ethics MAY not all be as unimpeachable, I have high hopes that they will continue to build on their environmentally friendly and health conscious approach.
  

Personally, I'm not a vegan. I don't even follow keto with any real devotion (not that I can afford to). I have found that eating with keto in mind does generally make *me* feel and function better. With that focus, I've glanced at each of the items posted on their site and can not wait to try many of them! And I find it worth mentioning that every one I've noticed appears to have a 5 of 5 customer rating.

I haven't created an account with them yet. I try to limit the number of places I disseminate my personal information, in order to keep my anxiety in check. If I decide that I can manage another, I hope to create an account and registry. And either way, if I'm able to obtain samples of any of their products, I'll be sure to post a brief review. 

Please don't wait on me to guide your choices. If anyone is able to sample this company's offerings ahead of me, I'd love to hear about your experience!

If you appreciate the information I'm providing, please feel free to use the following link:

Thank LilMischif

Is Work Really Just a Dream for Me

I just created a new Private registry, with Target.

It's starting out small but I'll be adding more items, that could give me a chance to earn some money for myself. Some of these may be similar. I'm looking for the very best PC I can get, to make it possible to run high resource art software. Eventually I hope to create my own world, where others can relax and enjoy various environments.

Only using the link below will it be possible to view or order from it. Orders are not expected but they surely would be appreciated!

I'll be delighted if anyone is willing to help me fulfill my lifelong desire. In fact, if there is a prepared promotional post that I could share for you, I'd be happy to post it here, in my blog.

I should probably mention that I have had bad experiences with "refurbished" computers. If it's intended to allow me to Work, I simply can't contemplate trying another one, unless someone is willing to guarantee me that it will Actually perform like a brand new one. It's also noteworthy that it's REALLY hard to get a tower PC into my registry, new or used.

Replacement Items Registry

I just created a new Private registry, with Target.

Only using the link below will it be possible to view or order from it. Orders are not expected but they surely would be appreciated!

The items listed here are things that wind up wearing out regularly. You're sure to see quite a few computer and gaming related items. These are necessary to help me keep my stress level manageable. So I'll be extremely grateful to anyone who is willing to help out. In fact, if there is a prepared promotional post that I could share for you, I'd be happy to post it here, in my blog.

Margyt's Desires

I just created a new Private registry, with Target.

It's starting out small but I'll be adding more items, that I need or really want. Some of these will be similar to those in my Walmart registry. Both lists tend to have a "multiple choice" approach. In other words, if you see several of the same item, it's generally an invitation to the purchaser to make a more personal choice.

Only using the link below will it be possible to view or order from it. Orders are not expected but they surely would be appreciated!

 

Even though I've FINALLY managed to secure my Disability payments, I'm far from financially secure. I was hoping for close to $800. Sadly I'm getting closer to $500. And that only covers my shelter expenses with a TINY bit left over. So between that and Food Stamps (which are getting less and less valuable with every passing month), I'll be lucky to maintain.

So I'll be very grateful to anyone who is willing to help me out. In fact, if there is a prepared promotional post that I could share for you, I'd be happy to post it here, in my blog.

Welcome Gamers

For those coming to my blog for the first time, from the DDO forums, Welcome to my EXTREMELY random life.

For the most part, it's unfiltered content. Just what ever I find interesting or stuff that might be helpful to people. I do try to keep it PG13-ish. If you're squeamish, avoid the medical posts.

If you're just trying to see what I look like, you will be sorely disappointed. I don't post pic's of my face.

Here's a link to the rest of it;  Artist, Lunatic & Vagrant

 

For anyone else who has just clicked on this because you saw the Tip tag, I would like to encourage you to check out Dungeons & Dragons Online. I've been playing it for something over a decade now.

Anyone can try it out for FREE. And while "Free to Play" is limited, it's still a great way to check out the game.

Good News!

Recently (for at least the last month or two) I've been dealing with some really serious stuff. Not least of which being that I managed to injure my left knee. It should be noted that I had roughly the same injury, to my right knee, around a year ago. It was soon after that first injury that I started doing yoga, in an attempt to increase the strength of my knees.

And while still dealing with the pain from the most recent injury, I was also anticipating my upcoming (now past) Disability hearing, with a serious amount of dread. Not my first hearing of this nature, though the first video hearing.

The good news is that, for the first time in weeks, I was finally able to feel comfortable trying to do yoga again. And in doing so I was greatly rewarded! 

To start with, I felt no extra pain in either of my knees. I appear to have lost much less condition and flexibility than I had feared. I'm even feeling a decrease in back pain and predilection towards intercostal muscle cramps, already! And now I feel more confident, both mentally and physically. That is to say I have more confidence in my own body and my mental outlook is quite improved.

It also doesn't hurt any that I am optimistic (albeit consciously so) regarding the outcome of my recently completed disability hearing.  This judge was the most compassionate, by far, of the ones that I've dealt with thus far.

It would be so totally amazing to finally be able to have a little money to spend on the things I need. I haven't had any income to speak of in quite a few years now. Therefore, so many things are wearing out or have already worn out. So I'm greatly looking forward to the possibility of replacing them, without having to beg for the money!

STOP Taking That Calcium Supplement (Need to Know) 2022

I sincerely hope everyone will give both of these videos a complete viewing at a time when they can have your full and undivided attention.

 

I have actually experienced some of what he says. I've found that if I regularly take the "recommended dose" of Calcium, in supplement form, after a while I start to feel a small pain indicating that a kidney stone is forming (location confirmed with my primary care doctor). Furthermore, that pain begins to subside soon after I stop or reduce my calcium supplement intake.

 

Some of the information provided here sounds kind of scary, at first "glance". But I'm of the opinion that is because it goes firmly against the False Information we've all been fed since birth. But don't blame your parents or even the media. They were misled as well. If you must assign blame, place it on whoever decided that a consensus of doctors' opinions should be considered fact. I'm choosing not to place blame though.

The one thing that is not mentioned, that I strongly believe is important to note here, is that Protein will be needed if you begin to do more Weight Bearing exercise. The simple consequence of weight bearing exercise is muscle development. If you fail to include enough protein in your diet, you just can not support building new muscle. And it is my experience that building muscle is the very best most sustainable way to lose weight and reshape your body.

Over all, I believe the information provided in these videos to be valid. And besides that, I believe that following this advise would make us all healthier and less prone to other common ailments as well. Cancer included! I personally have been trying to work towards a more natural diet for years now. More or less since my own cancer diagnosis.

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