Second Full Day Out of the Hospital

The following entry includes a frank explanations of some of my cancer recovery experiences. If you are at all squeamish about pain, bruising, bodily fluids, or possibly even blood, you should probably give this and related entries a pass.

I awoke today with the thought of getting a nice big breakfast and starting to get back into my usual routine.

Then I noticed how awful I felt. It was almost like having a cold, without any of the obvious nasty symptoms.
While I didn't feel the need to take more pain medicine, I had absolutely NO appetite. I even had a hard time finishing my coffee, after I pushed my pills down with a single fried egg. I did add extra cream to the coffee, to give myself enough calories for healing. I practically had to force myself to eat my beets and cheese, which I usually enjoy so much. And I couldn't stomach the thought of the soup that I usually have to go with it.

Then suddenly, around 6:00 p.m. or so, I was absolutely STARVING! I needed 2 whole slices of bacon and an egg. And when I was done with that, I had to have 2 more eggs. And in both cases, I could barely cook them fast enough.

I'm still wearing the bra they gave me in the hospital, to keep all the parts where they belong. And of course I still have some pain. But it doesn't feel like it's enough that I need to medicate for it. I haven't needed the Dilaudid, or morphine, or much of any of the prescription stuff, since immediately following surgery. And I hated that feeling of loss of control of my own functions.

Don't get me wrong. While I was in the hospital, it was nice to know that there were people there, if I needed them. And it was great to have the nurses and such to talk to when they were tending to me. But it made me very happy when I was finally able to move around on my own again.

I'm not sure yet if all the pain, diarrhea,  odd urine coloration and so on is done yet. But I am beginning to get the feeling that a good portion of it is. Obviously my treatment is NOT complete. I'm not even sure that I'm through the hardest part.

I anticipate limited side-effects from the "hormone therapy", that I'm told I have to have. The one I'm more concerned about is the radiation. I know there are side-effects to that. I'll just keep my fingers crossed and hope that the effect on me will be minimal.

Looks like my next step(s) involve getting ready for the rest of my treatment. I just need to take it a day at a time. If I step back to look at the "Big Picture" I'll lose my mind.

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